Thoughts of the month - June 2006
What has made you become who you are today?
Christmas Eve 1995, honeymoon in Mexico, my
first backpack travel experience, had a little fight with
my ex over dinner, abandoned in a restaurant out of no where,
with no sense of directions, guided and accompanied by the
nice couple dining nearby, back to the hotel, cried all night
that my eyes could hardly open after dawn, ex had gone for
tour in the morning, hopeless I got up and packed my stuff,
carried the 20lbs backpack crawled a long way without knowing
where to go.........the saddest day in my life, that has made
me become a seasoned single traveler today.
Healing
Healing is life time process, throughout we learn to forgive
and forget. Time will tell as time will heal. Bury our wounds
yet let the scar to be seen. An unexamined life is not worth
living. So all the ups and downs, merits or mishaps, episodic
memories to cherish, in the end, it is the journey that matters.
Over the years I have built a bridge for myself between the
present and the past. I move forward, yet look back once in
a while, seeing those hardships I endured, if I fall... I
stand up where I fell. If things don't change, I change my
way of looking, in that sense, my sanity sustains.
Alone but not lonely
I love being alone, but not lonely. This is the path I have
chosen, accustomed with solitude all my life, perhaps long
before I was born. Never had a problem of eating alone, traveling
alone, attending concerts alone...believe that's something
to do with genes, but mostly to do with choice. Yet on the
other hand I am very passionate to my friends and family,
that many people find it special quality in an Asian. I love
hugging my pals all the time, male and female. Every time
I see my nephew and niece, they must give me a real big hug
otherwise I won't let them go. Once I wrote a letter telling
my dad I loved him (for Chinese it was almost a nut case).
And my brothers are very close to me that they call me Sis.
From time to time I do miss the feeling of being loved, or
afraid of losing the ability to love someone. Hence I am not
shutting myself down but preparing for the right person to
come along. So I am alone, but not lonely.
Of course I know
Not long ago I had conversation with a young fellow, his
words of wisdom enlightened me for once. That day we were
sitting side by side nearby a scenic river in Belize, Central
America, while we had discussions over family values and friendship.
"I love my brothers very much, I think they love me
too." I said with a look of puzzle on my face
I guess.
"You think????? You KNOW." He corrected me right
away, by looking through my eyes to my soul.
And I smiled.......I really did. Yes, of course, I know..........
How does religion help?
Religion does not help to make a better world, believe in
God and fear of God does.
Religion does not change anybody in any aspect, faith does.
Religion does not offer any resolution for life mishap, hope
does.
Religion does not tell one how to behave, love does.
Finally walk on a path with all the signs and directions,
after got stuck in intersection for too many years. Did not
know where to go........a feeling of lost in space that scared
me for so long.
Now I see it through, no map or compass is needed. As long
as I follow the footprints I know for sure where I am going.
Clarity and serenity, instead of uncertainty and misery.
Through love and faithfulness sin is atoned for; through
the fear of the Lord evil is avoided. Proverbs 16:6
The Da Vinci Code
I had read the book in early 2004 long before
it turned out to be a phenomenon. Must admit it is probably
the best fiction ever written in decades, as it is really
page turning and well plotted. Do not have much problem with
those made up twist but got a problem with the author claimed
himself a Christian and claimed the book was written based
on facts. Tons of documentaries with concrete evidences have
been released against his theory ever since. The truth is
there, too obvious that even the blinds can see. We know where
we stand, we do not encourage young fellow Christians watching
the movie without a solid ground of belief. After all, it
is merely a well written fiction yet with awesome marketing
scheme behind the scene.
Love
Of all the emotions, anger and love have most in common.
They are difficult to control and powerful motivations. But
anger diminishes feelings of hope while love arouse them.
My version is rather simple, love conquers all, and it is
about give and take.
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