Thoughts of the month - June 2006


What has made you become who you are today?

Christmas Eve 1995, honeymoon in Mexico, my first backpack travel experience, had a little fight with my ex over dinner, abandoned in a restaurant out of no where, with no sense of directions, guided and accompanied by the nice couple dining nearby, back to the hotel, cried all night that my eyes could hardly open after dawn, ex had gone for tour in the morning, hopeless I got up and packed my stuff, carried the 20lbs backpack crawled a long way without knowing where to go.........the saddest day in my life, that has made me become a seasoned single traveler today.


Healing

Healing is life time process, throughout we learn to forgive and forget. Time will tell as time will heal. Bury our wounds yet let the scar to be seen. An unexamined life is not worth living. So all the ups and downs, merits or mishaps, episodic memories to cherish, in the end, it is the journey that matters. Over the years I have built a bridge for myself between the present and the past. I move forward, yet look back once in a while, seeing those hardships I endured, if I fall... I stand up where I fell. If things don't change, I change my way of looking, in that sense, my sanity sustains.


Alone but not lonely

I love being alone, but not lonely. This is the path I have chosen, accustomed with solitude all my life, perhaps long before I was born. Never had a problem of eating alone, traveling alone, attending concerts alone...believe that's something to do with genes, but mostly to do with choice. Yet on the other hand I am very passionate to my friends and family, that many people find it special quality in an Asian. I love hugging my pals all the time, male and female. Every time I see my nephew and niece, they must give me a real big hug otherwise I won't let them go. Once I wrote a letter telling my dad I loved him (for Chinese it was almost a nut case). And my brothers are very close to me that they call me Sis.

From time to time I do miss the feeling of being loved, or afraid of losing the ability to love someone. Hence I am not shutting myself down but preparing for the right person to come along. So I am alone, but not lonely.


Of course I know

Not long ago I had conversation with a young fellow, his words of wisdom enlightened me for once. That day we were sitting side by side nearby a scenic river in Belize, Central America, while we had discussions over family values and friendship.

"I love my brothers very much, I think they love me too." I said with a look of puzzle on my face
I guess.

"You think????? You KNOW." He corrected me right away, by looking through my eyes to my soul.
And I smiled.......I really did. Yes, of course, I know..........


How does religion help?

Religion does not help to make a better world, believe in God and fear of God does.
Religion does not change anybody in any aspect, faith does.
Religion does not offer any resolution for life mishap, hope does.
Religion does not tell one how to behave, love does.

Finally walk on a path with all the signs and directions, after got stuck in intersection for too many years. Did not know where to go........a feeling of lost in space that scared me for so long.
Now I see it through, no map or compass is needed. As long as I follow the footprints I know for sure where I am going. Clarity and serenity, instead of uncertainty and misery.

Through love and faithfulness sin is atoned for; through the fear of the Lord evil is avoided. Proverbs 16:6


The Da Vinci Code

I had read the book in early 2004 long before it turned out to be a phenomenon. Must admit it is probably the best fiction ever written in decades, as it is really page turning and well plotted. Do not have much problem with those made up twist but got a problem with the author claimed himself a Christian and claimed the book was written based on facts. Tons of documentaries with concrete evidences have been released against his theory ever since. The truth is there, too obvious that even the blinds can see. We know where we stand, we do not encourage young fellow Christians watching the movie without a solid ground of belief. After all, it is merely a well written fiction yet with awesome marketing scheme behind the scene.


Love

Of all the emotions, anger and love have most in common. They are difficult to control and powerful motivations. But anger diminishes feelings of hope while love arouse them. My version is rather simple, love conquers all, and it is about give and take.